Beyoncé sat with Elle for a rare interview where fans were allowed to write in questions for Queen B. One fan asked Beyoncé about notable award snubs in the past and her answer was surprisingly open.

“I connected with Lemonade and I almost passed out when I saw Homecoming,” the fan wrote. “What’s up with the people who give out awards? Were you disappointed not winning?”

In case you don’t remember, there was a lot of outrage in 2017 when Lemonade didn’t win Album of the Year at the Grammys. Adele took home the award and during her acceptance speech questioned why Beyoncé didn’t win.

Then just this year Beyoncé’s Homecoming was nominated for five Emmys and lost in every category. During her interview with Elle, Beyoncé shrugged off the snubs and explained the personal reason why awards don’t mean that much to her anymore.

“I began to search for deeper meaning when life began to teach me lessons I didn’t know I needed,” she said. “Success looks different to me now. I learned that all pain and loss is in fact a gift.”

“Being ‘number one’ was no longer my priority,” she said. “My true win is creating art and a legacy that will live far beyond me,” she concluded. “That’s fulfilling.”

And, as Beyoncé explains it, going through serious struggles in her personal life put the pettier stuff like awards into perspective. Of course, spoken like a true queen.