There is a tradition in the royal family of moms doing a photoshoot with their newborn right after giving birth. Now, while that might sound fairly fine, think about any new mom: do you think she wants to go put on full makeup, hair, and heels? Yeah, we thought not.

Meghan Markle decided to go against the traditional Lindo Wing photoshoot after giving birth to Archie. But Kate Middleton has done it for all three of her children. In an interview on the Happy Mum, Happy Baby podcast, the Duchess revealed that the first time was “terrifying.” She said of the appearance, “Yeah, slightly terrifying, slightly terrfying, I’m not going to lie.”

“Everyone had been so supportive and both William and I were really conscious that this was something that everyone was excited about and, you know, we’re hugely grateful for the support that the public had shown us, and actually for us to be able to share that joy and appreciation with the public, I felt was really important. But equally it was coupled with a newborn baby, and inexperienced parents, and the uncertainty of what that held, so there were all sorts of mixed emotions.”

Middleton also shared that she and Prince William decided not to find out Prince George’s gender before she gave birth and that William was thrilled th be having a boy. “Seeing the pure joy of his face it was really special.”