Whether you love her or not, Kim Kardashian is a pop culture icon. And with that level of fame comes lots and lots of opinions. Back in 2013, Kim made her debut at the Met Gala in a floral Givenchy dress. But what should have been a fun night was anything but. In a Vogue video, Kim reveals how her first Met Gala went down.

First off, Kim thought nobody wanted her at the event. “Kanye was performing, so I wasn’t actually invited,” she said. “I was just Kanye’s plus one, and that was okay with me because I never really dreamed I would be at the Met Ball. I know no one really probably wanted me there at the time.”

Her night ended in tears after she saw how people were reacting to her dress. She said, “On the car ride there I remember Kanye saying, ‘you look so beautiful, I’m so happy for you.’ And then I was crying the whole way home because I just couldn’t believe it. There were all these memes about me and this couch, and I think Robin Williams even tweeted it, said I looked like Mrs. Doubtfire. It was this whole thing and I just cried.”

Like a true queen, Kim looks back at her decision to wear that dress with absolutely no regrets.

“Now I love it,” she said. “I look back and I’m like, ‘Wow, they had the vision. This is sick.’ I just remember the Olsen twins came up to me and loved my outfit and my gloves, so none of the critics mattered because the Olsen twins approved.”