Smashing Pumpkins Reunite, Despite Rivalry
Serena Carsley-Mann - March 1, 2018

Changes

By Greta Zwaan

I sought for joy in peace, and rest to ease my weary mind,
Stressed out by such a heavy load, rest I just had to find.
My endurance could hold no more, my limits had been met,
I needed time to stand aside, sweet time to just forget.

But where to find the road to peace, an obscure trait to me;
My hectic lifestyle can't comprehend a way to set time free.
I've always rushed from A to B with no side glace allowed,
I had my life so well controlled; in truth, I felt quite proud.

No one could tell me what to do, I was a self-made man;
My schedules were controlled by me, I had a thorough plan.
'Twas good when all things went my way and no one interfered;
I had no one to answer to, my way was always cleared.

But years of this brought me no joy, though fortunes I'd amassed;
It seemed that all the things I owned would oh, so soon be past.
I had no friends that knew my plight, I kept myself at bay,
They all had troubles of their own; besides, what could they say?

They envied me with all my wealth, they never saw my pain,
I had life altogether, what more was there to gain?
But loneliness is terrible and emptiness is sad,
There seems no purpose for each day, no reason to be glad.

So now I wait; why? I don't know, but life for me must change.
There must be more than fortunes, a way to rearrange.
There has to be a purpose, and someone surely knows,
Why life is complicated, and days so full of woes.

Perhaps you have the answer, perhaps you know the route,
Perhaps you've traveled here before; if so, please help me out.
If need be, I'll be patient, I'll even take advice;
I'll gladly make the changes, no matter what the price.

I don't need independence, I've had my round of that;
I long for understanding, to know just where I'm at.
Someday I hope to thank you because you saw my need,
Perhaps with greater meaning, with purpose, not with greed.

I don't know how I got here, what lies ahead of me,
I'm grateful there'll be changes, I'm grateful to be free.

Despite having revived the Smashing Pumpkins brand with more touring throughout recent years and more albums, the only constant member, lead singer, songwriter and guitarist, Billy Corgan has never approved the commercial success of the band’s ’90s success.

Corgan had to put his ego aside when he accepted the fact a few years ago that the Smashing Pumpkins were simply not the same without James Iha, their original guitarist, one of the founding fathers of the group in 1998, as well as the drummer Jimmy Chamberlin and D’Arcy Wretzky, the group’s bassist.

After some emails sent by Iha and a few dinners, Corgan began to slow bring his band back together. Well almost. The original group in July, minus Wretzky, is set to go on tour with 38 concert dates. Their summer tour is titled Shiny And Oh So Bright.  Although the show happens to fall on their 30th anniversary, they claim that this tour is not a nostalgia trip whatsoever.

Corgan says that this is the happiest time for the Smashing Pumpkins, while the rest are not as excited. Time will tell how fans react to their return after all of Corgans bizarre moves. He remains most conflicted in regaining his public image, and how it has affected his band’s legacy.  He expresses that he knows if he had kept more quiet and had managed to keep his band together, they could be a lot more successful today.

The controversy worked to their favor, but only to a certain point.  The rest of the band fell away, which is something Corgan did not realize would happen. Corgan compares the band reuniting to rekindling a romance nearly two decades later. The love is surely there, but is the magic and the language still there?

The band decided everything was there in the studio,  putting on a demo of 15 songs, hoping to perfect one single with Rubin. He picked eight songs to record.  The band was most pumped up for their new work, but quickly realized that the crowd wants most to hear their most loved songs from back in the day.